Tuesday, November 4, 2008

pics and travel

Hi all,

Just a quick update for now. You may have noticed that i removed certain imagery that may or may not have been offensive to certain readers, and certainly not the kind of pics they were expecting when they clicked on this blog. I have now provided link to sites instead, so if you want to see pics, then click on thru, otherwise just continue reading.

Also, i'm heading away for a couple weeks on a trip for work, so my blogging abilities may not be as great. But this is the first time for me to actually be alone, without any supervision (other than god of course, lol). I wonder what i will and won't do while i'm there. Shabbat? Kosher? Prayer? When there's no one watching me how low will i go? Only time will tell i guess. Sometimes i feel this is the test, when there's no-one around physically to tell me off of what i will keep and what i won't.

jay

9 comments:

Yaakov said...

i can't wait to hear how ur trip goes. and even if u can't blog while ur there, i'm sure u'll have a lot to say when u get back!

heblish@hotmail.com said...

great decision about the pix. was going to comment on them -- but looks like others have.

hopefully, i can recommend your blog by straight allies looking to understand the 'gay hell' without fear of what they'll click upon!

after all, i'm trying to DISCOURAGE the notion that all gay men are singularly sex-obsessed.

Jay said...

heblish, you should've said something earlier! But i gotta say, i think all young men are sex obsessed, gay and straight. Especially if they haven't been with anyone...

j

heblish said...

that;s why i said 'singularly' sex obsessed -- that they're interested in only sex and not a relationship...

i think your blog can really help people understand the people behind the 'issue'. it's easy for them to throw around lines from their favorite rav of the week when they don't have to examine the lives they're effecting. maybe if they hear the voices of the jews suffering silently, they can start to reconsider their prejudices.

Jay said...

Thats very true. Now to get them to actually open up their minds...

David said...

"How low will I go?"

That all depends on whether you define changes in patterns of your religious observance as 1)creating your own personal criteria for religious expression, or 2)failing to conform to established norms.

Why not see it as a chance to explore "what do I enjoy doing independently as religious expression, compared to what I do only when I am pressure to do it?"

Jay said...

Ok, so how low will i go is definitely not the right expression i was looking for.

But out of those 2 options, i don't think it's either. I don't see myself as a rebel, wanting to step past the boundaries that have been set for me. Nor do i see it as wanting to establish my own criteria for religious expression. Some people love being spiritual, and it gives them a warm fuzzy feeling inside. All i feel is apathy. I do it by rote, like thats all i know how to live. There is no feeling, no enjoyment in any of it.

One thing i do think is that i don't want to be part of the life i grew up with.

steve said...

u should convince ur office to send you to NY there are so many people ud benefit from meetings or talking to here. Enjoy ur trip and tell us all the details wen u return!

Jay said...

Lol, i get sent where there's work to be done. Not where i feel like going. Though i wish they did send me to NY