Tuesday, December 30, 2008

My day today :)

Where do I even begin? I'm sure my day was pretty tame by gay standards. But for mine it was awesome. Some of you will probably say i should lift my standards after reading, but i think they're fine just where they are.

I have a friend i met on fb. He's not American, but planned on being in the US at the same time as me, so i knew i wanted to meet him. I really really wanted to meet him. We'd been chatting online for months, maybe even a year or more. Anyway he had visited a number of cities on both coasts, but hadn't made it to NY yet. He had something going on back home so he'd have to fly home to sort that out. It was going to be even longer till i get to meet him. Then one night I get a message from him. He'd scheduled a stopover in NY on the way back home to meet me. Just for the day, well even less than a day. He'd arrive on a red eye in the morning, and have to head back to the airport in the afternoon. It wasn't going to be so long, but it was better than not seeing him at all.

It was only a couple days away and the excitement was getting to me. The night before i woke up a few times, and checked my cellphone for the time, to see if it was time to get up yet. I slept about 5 hours that night, but who cares. I was gonna finally meet him :)

I took the train in to the city, and met him at a starbucks. Of course ;) Had coffee and talked alot. About his past, his future, and everything in between. We then decided to hit the stores, he was looking for something from a particular store so we walked up 5th Avenue, checking out stores. Of course me checking him out too. I was wondering if maybe i could join him in the fitting room at one place, but i thought better of it. Probably cameras in there for security or something. Oh well, we didn't find what he was looking for so we moved on.

The more we talked the more comfortable i got with him. Well not comfortable, i was comfortable, but more comfortable telling him things i'd normally be embarrassed about. Like how hot i thought he was, how great he'd look out of a pair of jeans (he'd sent me a pic of him in them). All the regular flirty talk that seems normal online, is harder to get out when i'm standing right next to him.

He was hungry, so we stopped in McDonalds. I wasn't going to eat, so i let him pick the place. (I'm not sure how many orthodox jews read this blog, but i was wondering whats technically a worse sin - eating non kosher, or not keeping the sabbath? The latter i seem to do pretty easily, yet i can't fathom eating something from McDs).

It was great :) I got to sit there and stare into his beautiful eyes and look at his beautiful smile the whole time we were there, and we were there for quite a while. Even after he finished eating, we just sat there and talked and talked and talked. I was feeling a bit frisky, and had a hard on, lol. I at first 'accidentally' brushed my hand against his knee. I did it a few times actually. But i wanted more. I told him to move forward in his seat. He leaned forward, and i was thinking of kissing him. God i wanted to. But i stopped myself. I told him not to lean forward, but scoot forward, which he did. I could then grab hold of his knew, which i did. I played with him a bit, we held hands under the table, it was hot.

I told him i'd head into the restrooms when it was empty and i wanted him to follow me. I didn't know how much time we'd have until someone walked in, and it certainly wasn't the kind of place we'd get up to much mischief, but at the very least I could kiss him, and i was absolutely dying to kiss him.

It looked empty so I wanted to do it, then and there, but he got a call from overseas, and by the time he'd finished, it was full and people were waiting to go in. I'd missed my opportunity. Maybe i could find another.

We continued out tour of manhattan. Stopping in some stores, looking at souvenirs. It was really so much fun just hanging out with him. Then he had to head back to the airport for his flight. I needed to get on the subway too so i went with him and eventually decided i'd go with him all the way to JFK. We took the A train to Howard Beach. There were a few opportunities where i thought right now would be the perfect time to kiss. We were at one end of the carriage, the train had emptied somewhat, and the people across us has nodded off. Of course these 2 african american women were staring straight at us. I just couldn't. Then we had to change trains. Being in the first carriage, we got off at the transfer station away from everyone else. There was a small secluded area and i thought here was my chance. Until another couple decided to join us there to wait for the next train. Damn it! Every time :(

Back on the train, and off at Howard Beach. The place was packed with people going to and coming from JFK. It wasn't looking that good. I said goodbye and gave him a hug. While i had him in my arms i kissed him on the cheek. Mmm, prickly, lol. He hadn't shaven that morning. As i let go I saw a jewish man with a kippa on come through the turnstile. It was then i was glad i had decided this wasn't the place for a full on kiss.

I guess it will wait till next time. And he's promised me there will be when he gets back. He'd make NY a proper stopover so we could spend more time together, and have some privacy, and do all the things we want to do with each other. I'll leave that up to your imagination ;)

good night from the big apple,

Friday, December 26, 2008

NYC part 2

I've been trying to write this post, but it keeps on getting pushed off. So here it finally is. I hope it lives up to my (and your) expectations.

I had so many plans when I came here. Things i was gonna do. People i was gonna meet. Well things are going alot slower than planned, which isn't altogether a bad thing. One person i wanted to meet when i got here was David, from Someone in a Tree. I've been reading his blog for a long time, and not too long ago I told him who I was. We had been chatting and he seemed like a really nice guy, and i knew I wanted to meet him once i got here. Well that was the plan anyway. It was just gonna be for coffee, but it was going to be really nice to meet and talk face to face, rather than online using facebook, email or text message. But things just never worked out. Whenever i thought maybe, i couldn't do it. I even finally booked him in, only to have to cancel on him the next day. I hated that.

Seeing at the rate we were going, we would never get to meet, so I figured i'd give him a call. I also thought there was something that he wanted to chat about - dating and girls. So i thought why not. I was a bit apprehensive about it but there wasn't any reason to be. I had reached his voicemail once before, and he sounded really sweet/cute/nice/sexy on the phone. He turned out to be a really nice guy. We had a great chat, well maybe i was venting more than anything, and he gave me some advice on some issues and some 40 minutes later at 2am it was time to call it a night. I probably could've gone on for hours if he hadn't stopped me. It was really nice to finally talk to him, and i'm hoping we meet up for coffee real soon.

Ok thats all the good stuff. Here comes the rest. I wish things had actually gone a bit differently. I wish our first conversation wasn't something serious and heavy. Light and fluffy would've been much nicer. Not that it wasn't good, but still. I also said a thing or two to him, which while intended to be a joke, i think maybe I was too forward. Maybe he's too nice to tell me i've gone too far, lol. Oh well, it is what it is, and i seem to do that too often those days.

Oh BTW, things are pretty slow in the search for cock too. Thought my readers would want to know ;) I havent been very proactive in that area, but slow and steady... gets the cock or something like that.

Well I'll keep you all posted :)

Wednesday, December 24, 2008


Hey all,

I've got a post in my head but i just seem to have trouble writing it down. Well actually finding time to write it down. It's the busy holiday season after all, and i'm just bogged down. Holiday celebrations and a million other things and at 3am i just can't concentrate, let alone remember what it is i wanted to say. So i figured i'd just wish you all happy holidays, merry christmas and happy hanukka and i hope i'll find some time in the next few days :)


Friday, December 19, 2008


Tonight was fun. I went through my phone numbers and called a bunch of people. The one thing they had in common was that they were all gay. Some were people i'd contacted before through various methods of communication. Some were people i intended to meet up with while i was in NY. Some were people who had given me their number and probably didn't remember that they did. I got through to some, others to their voicemail. But i'm glad i did it, even if i got a bit cold doing so.


Thursday, December 18, 2008

Yep still here

So here i am, and all the things i thought i'd get to do, well i'm not exactly getting to do them. Well i am, everything is just going slower than i imagined. No i'm not talking about getting laid, lol ;) just meeting people that i want to meet. It's not like i'm really busy, yet i still don't find the time to do it... Hopefully next week will be better on that front.

In other news, i'm dating again. And thats a problem. I'm finally dating a girl that i can't easily find a fault with, she's more my speed, we have fun together. The only problem is she is a girl. We could be good friends one day, although that doesn't go so well over here. I don't want to keep on dating her because i know it's not going to go anywhere, but I'm sort of being pushed to keep dating her. It's very frustrating. I can't say we don't have things in common, i can't say we didn't have fun, i can't say she's boring, i can't say i didn't like her looks, i can't say she's stupid, i can't say she's too tall or short for me, i can't say she did anything specific that i didn't like, i just can't say anything bad about her. So why don't i want to date her? Argh!!! I don't want to keep on dating because i know i'd have to break up with her at some point and the earlier the better.

My problem is i'm too nice a guy. Girls like me, lol. I'm always the one that does the dumping, rather than the other way around. I really don't know how i'm going to get out of this mess :(


Thursday, December 11, 2008

Meeting new people

So i'm in NYC. What do i do? Of course i went to a party. Got the invite on facebook. Then i got a call from a friend i met online that i wanted to meet while i'm here that he saw i was going to the party and so was he :) That's great i thought. I hadn't expected to meet up with anyone so soon but this would be great. the only thing was how was I supposed to know him already? We lived in different cities, mixed with different crowds. I guess i'd have to pretend i didn't really know him, which was weird. I walked into the room and i saw him. Of course i first had to say hi to everyone that i actually knew. Then i got introduced to those I didn't know, one being him, lol. It was actually a lot of fun to get to chat with him in person. I couldn't believe it was actually happening. We felt like old friends, which we were. Of course we didn't really get any time to ourselves. Even though we moved to the kitchen, the party sort of followed us, lol. But it was fun, and i'm hoping to meet up with him again soon :)


Monday, December 8, 2008

Craigslist ad

I posted a while back that i'd put an ad on craigslist. In hindsight, i don't think i was necessarily looking for something, i was more curious as to what response i'd get. Anyway i turned down all the responses i got, of all of them, only one guy was cute. Recently one other guy messaged me back, asking if i ended up doing anything about it. I hadn't, but we got chatting a bit. He wanted a pic of me. I didn't want to send one. I wouldn't meet up with him anyway. But i was curious as to what he looked like. I wanted one of him. But he wouldn't send one, unless i sent first. So i did. And he did. To be honest, he wasn't someone i'd meet up with. It's interesting how those people that responded to my post are mainly guys i probably wouldn't have hooked up with in general. Guys who are 'straight' but want to fuck guys too. Or guys i'd have no interest in normally. Well except for that one cute guy. I wonder where he is right now. I guess thats why craigslist is good in some ways. You can be as anonymous as you want to be.


Friday, December 5, 2008