Saturday night arrived… what to do! Well I could go to G lounge, on the long shot that the guy I saw the previous week would be there again. And who would I go with? So I called up a friend, he’d never been to a place like this before, and I didn’t want to push him to come with me in case he wasn’t ok with it. I mentioned that I was considering going, and he said maybe he could come. I let him think it over and in the end he joined me. We walked in and went straight to the bar and got our first drink.
Eventually we found a place to sit, sort of by the window, away from most of the crowd. I couldn’t really scout the crowd but the guy probably wasn’t there anyway. We were there, drinking and chatting. Then a guy came over who was sitting nearby. Are you orthodox? He asked. I said yeah. Are you gay? He asked. I said yeah. He asked a few more questions, then went back to the guy he was there with to tell all, lol. Eventually we moved over to them because of course they had more questions. It was a really interesting conversation. But eventually they left, and after another drink or 2 we left too, going our separate ways.
For Sunday I had some things planned. While everyone was busy superbowl partying, I was going to meet David for dinner. I got to the place and looked in the window. Yep he was there already. Of course I was nervous from the get go, not that there was any reason to be. He was a really nice friendly guy. Of course I’d spoken to him quite bit over the past few months, but meeting is always different. We had a nice meal, with the superbowl going on in the background, lol. After the meal the superbowl was still on, so where better than to watch the ending but in Gym sports bar in Chelsea. We took the subway, and the place was absolutely packed with hot/cute guys, lol. It was great that we made our way through to the back. He went to get us some beers so it was just me, all alone. I felt a bit weird, a few people looking at me, but all was good. We had a really nice time, a great game ending, and there was this one guy in a group in front of us with longish blond hair, wearing a white Henley, oh he was so cute :). We caught each other’s eyes a few times and we both smiled. Eventually he introduced himself and his friends which was nice. Of course post game was the perfect opportunity for him and his bf to start kissing. Well he’s taken then, lol.
After the game we said our goodbyes. I stuck around roaming the streets of Chelsea because I had some phone calls to make. I considered going into the G lounge, but I decided I didn’t need to be there EVERY night, so I walked right past it, had a bit of a look in. Just roaming the streets there walking past all the hot guys is so much fun. I should do it more often! I had a really fun time with David and I hope we can do it again sometime. Of course there was a cute guy on the subway home :).
Now we’re up to Monday. I was out, but I’d been thinking of going to see Milk with a friend. Of course he’d been wanting to see it for a while, but we decided we’d see it together. I’d had to cancel on him a few times, but this was it. We made it to a late night showing with only a few other people in the theater. It was a really good movie, which of course seeing that I was the last gay person to see it should’ve said something to me. The movie really hit me in a way I wasn’t expecting. Ok so I didn’t know Harvey gets killed. I need to go over my gay rights history on Wikipedia, lol. But on the way home I actually started to seriously think about what things would be like for me if I came out. How my family would react. What my parents would do. What my friends would think. Who would I tell first. Who should I tell first? When would I do it? There were so many questions and I played them through in my head numerous times. Whatever it is, it’s not gonna be easy, but things are now starting to get serious. I’m not jumping the gun, but I can see the end of the tunnel. I hope there’s some light there.
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