Wednesday, August 27, 2008

Out with the old and in with the new

What was the original purpose of this blog, you may ask. I don't think i'd have a definite answer. It would be a place to vent. A place to air my frustration. A place to share my good news, as well as my bad. A place where i could put things down on 'paper'.

I'm quite a sensitive guy, and i normally would keep things bottled up, rather than the tell the person off that i'm mad upset with. I'm just not sure what to do. I (as a gay person) have 2 groups of friends. 1 would be the initial people i met, or chatted to or came out to. The second group would be those that came onto the scene more recently. It kind of feels like i've fallen out of favor with the first group. I don't know whether they still read this blog. But i hate feeling like i'm the only one putting into this friendship, well whatever's left of it.

2 people in particular i felt like we'd be best friends forever. But now i'm not so sure. I email, i message, and there's only so long one can keep on doing this and most of the time not getting a reply before you think about giving up. I used to think i'd have a friend for life, but we've moved on from a bunch of emails per day to maybe 1 every week, or from daily chats to never chatting.

They could be working 3 jobs, or working on their PhD, or whatever, and i know they're busy. But is it too much to ask for a hello every now and then? Or a reply to an email. Even a 1 liner is better than nothing. Is it asking for too much? Maybe it is...


It scares me how quickly things have changed.



Creative Thinker said...

well, having been out almost 2 years, I can say with certainty that the gay community has the depth of a frying pan. I do think there are such things as "real" gay friends (you know what I mean), but I definately think they are difficult to come by. Hang in there buddy and dont give your heart away too quickly, even if it is just to friends...


Anonymous said...

Creative Thinker, you've been out not even two years and you're that bitter?

Friends should be friends, not "gay friends" or "black friends" or "white friends" - sure we need people in our life that understand us but look out side the box.

I have the most amazing groups of friends, they enrich my life and I feel honoured to have them around me - I can't imaging what life would be like with out them - they are my family... And, you might not believe me but some of them are gay too.

I believe it's important to stop and think about what might be going on in the lives of others before making a judgement. Sometimes difficult things may prevent people from communicating in the way they would normally do.

If a tree falls in a forest and no one is around to hear it, does it make a sound?