Things have progressed quite a lot since my last post. I've come out to more people, but real people. Real friends, going through similar things to what i am. A bunch of nice jewish boys who i'd love to meet up with next time i'm in their neck of the woods. Which will hopefully be later this year. I been chatting with them online, speaking on the phone for hours. We have so much in common and so much to talk about, there's not enough time in the day!
There was also one other guy, a really sweet guy and i thought we'd been chatting so long, i should probably tell him. So i did, and we really hit it off. We're planning to meet up later in the year when we actually find ourselves in the same country at one time. In a way i'm surprised things are working out so well. For a while i was probably looking at things as the cup half empty. But things are now cup half full. The hard part isn't over, but it's nice to know i have a bunch of friends that will support me (i hope) when the going gets tough.
I'd always been concerned about my looks. I don't know how to say this without sounding like a wanker, but i think i'm cute looking, well maybe i would be without this beard. I have an average body, and I never thought i'd be considered attractive by someone the way i look now. Ssome of these people that i chat to tell me how cute i am, or how i am their 'type', lol. Maybe they're just being nice, but it's really nice to hear. For someone to tell me that he thinks i'm sexy and wants to 'play' when we meet up, coming from a guy who i think is really hot and has a great muscular body, well thats been great for my self esteem. And really good for my fantasies ;)
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