This doesn't really fit in with the rest of this post but I can't believe I forgot to write it. After we left Therapy Mr Z took my hand and held it, saying "don't worry, it's a safe block". So I asked if i could kiss him. He stopped, pushed me against the wall of a building and started to kiss me passionately :) . It felt like the most out there thing i'd done in a while, and was something I missed the whole time we hadn't seen each other.
Back to the topic at hand... there's a couple things i wanted to talk about. I can't say I wasn't expecting it, it had to happen sooner or later. There were just too many issues, which is why we broke up the first time around, and since then I guess i just wasn't so into it because the issues were still there. So Mr z and I officially broke up for good, I guess he could just see that we had drifted apart and now it was just sex, which while fun, wasn't what he needed. So we broke up, over facebook chat. I guess I won't be going to fire island with him in the summer, lol. Mmm not sure i would've anyway.
There's a few sites i've been logging on to every now and then, such as manhunt. I don't know why, i'm not exactly going to hook up with some guy from there am I? Yes I like checking out who is online, and chatting to a few people. I have a basic free account meaning i'm limited as to how many profiles I can see in a day and how many messages i can read too. There are a few people that whenever they see i'm online, always message me, and i mean ALWAYS! A couple i've thought yeah he's hot, I might like to hook up with them one day, and there are others that I have no interest in. Another site I joined up was m4m-usa.com. Similar story there, I get a few hits and i wonder what it'd be like. Damn he's cute, too bad I'm not gonna show him the real me :(
The latest site I joined was compatiblepartners.net . It's the gay arm of eharmony.com. Supposedly you fill out this whole long questionaire and they computer match you with other people. They email you the matches they've come up with every day. I've even got a match with someone that I knew, which was interesting. Of course I don't have a pic up, and I use Jay as my name there. But everything I answered in my questionaire was truthful about myself.
Of course nothing is going to come out of any of those sites, because my life is still sort of unstable at the moment for a real relationship (that's assuming I'm looking for one now), and hooking up with someone i met online just feels a bit weird to me. I think i'll continue just going out and meeting people and taking things one day at a time :)
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