Tuesday, April 14, 2009

Some people...

Some people just piss me off. JC, MS or whatever else he's calling himself is one of them. He's a guy that found my blog... i think. He then found my fb. He then started chatting to me. It all began as harmless stuff. He was Jewish, religious, married, gay. It seems we had things in common, and stuff we could talk about. I did give him some information about myself, maybe a bit more than I would normally give a person. Only there was one thing I didn't know about him, - he was from the same city I was and soon enough figured out who I was. He didn't tell me he thought he knew who i was. He just started naming things and places connected to my family, like where a sibling of mine lives, and other stuff. At first I freaked out, he knew who i was. What would he do with the information? Would he tell anyone? After wards we started chatting less. He refused to tell me anything about himself. Nothing. Not even his initials, or what synagogue he goes to. Nothing at all. It was like everytime we had contact it was a reminder that he had this information about me and was holding it over my head. And there was nothing I could do to stop him. For the first time I actually felt helpless with my own fate.

His excuse for not telling me was basically since I planned on coming out at some point and he didn't, he had a lot more to lose if his identity became public knowledge, more than I had to lose if mine did. And that just pissed me off. Like who exactly would I tell? Why would I tell? How stupid did he think I was? As if i'd tell people about him, when he would just be able to do the same thing about me?

Anyway, so since then we haven't really had much contact. Everytime he gets chatting to me I push him for some details, and then suddenly he has to go. I have no interest in chatting with this guy. But he still finds a way to get on my nerves. The latest example is passover. I went away for passover. It was a pretty last minute trip. My family knew about it, a few of my friends knew I went away and where, but noone else really did. Until I get a message on facebook from this guy: "How's _______?". For crying out loud, what is this guy's problem? Yeah he knows who I am, and loves taunting me that he knows more and more things about me without revealing anything about himself. So here's a big FUCK YOU to him. You want to tell me something that I'm actually interested in hearing about? Fine. Otherwise don't contact me again, cos I'm just not interested in hearing it.

j

15 comments:

Anonymous said...

i would just block that bitch. i had a piece of shit harass me at some point and the best thing i ever did in my life was block him online and shake him off. he's no longer in my life and after i did that i've been much better. hope to see happier posts in the future!

Anonymous said...

oh-my sunshine,

its way to late to suggest 2 you 2:
NEVR JUDGE A BOOK BY ITS COVER(even written in hebrew)...i believe you shouldnt worry about him revealing any personal info concerning you to your family, he likely is smart enough to understand that if he does so...youll find out the sourse of the rumor easily...and he will be afraid that youll backfire with some info about his double life:after all as you mentioned-he really has much more to lose than you (marriage etc)

g'nite :)

DM said...

Clearly he's jealous of the cock you've been sucking when he's stuck at home munching carpet. I was outed by friends and family to others and as much as I felt betrayed I was relieved that I didn't have to come out to certain people.

Anonymous said...

Sounds like you have yourself a stalker!

Anonymous said...

Just goes to show, my dear, DONT BE STUPID. You have a big mouth and yapped way to much. Now you're paying the price for it.

If you cant stand the heat, stay out of the kitchen. Dont blog and tell the whole world all the intimate details of your life.

Let it be a lesson to all the rest of us

Anonymous said...

hey sunshine-i disagree about the 'big mouth' part!...after all: Jay Murray is...a character(not a real person), none of the info in any of the previous posts could have ever happened...it may be considered 'a writers creation)asumption'...you r the writer)creator of...what could have happened to 'Jay Murray' which is not nesesarily the true in the real world.
:)
mpdm

Jay said...

Anon: From reading this blog, no-one could figure out who i am. The fact that I thought he was in a similar boat to me I gave him some more info, that combined with the fact that he was from the same place as me meant he was able to figure it all out.

I can stand it and will continue to blog about my life. Doesn't mean he needs to be a prick.

j

Anonymous said...

maybe it's ur dad!
:)

Jay said...

Lol, my dad doesn't know what a blog is!

Anonymous said...

jay, i have a few people out there who know who i am from within my frum community in ny, it also scares me shitless but what can i do. i slowly attempt to find out more about them at least to relieve my conscience i guess. stay kool. they wouldnt out u cuz then he wud get himself outted too and probably much more if u get mean.... be well

Jay said...

I don't think he's gonna out me, but still bothers me that he knows who I am and he's no willing to tell me a thing about himself. Thats why I'm not interested in having any more contact with him until the 'balance of power' shifts somewhat.

J

Anonymous said...

You have put others in a similar situation (knowing who they were and not being open & honest with them etc...). Although i don't think this person would out you, he is probably more scared than you are. Regardless, it's a shame that both of you can't have healthy dialogue without feeling threatened. It reminds me of how small children relate to each other. I hope both of you find peace within yourselves so that you can relate in a healthy way with others.

Jay said...

To the last anonymous, assuming you are who I think you are, actually yes there has been a situation where I knew a person's identity and he didn't know mine. He revealed his to me, knowing I would not be revealing mine to him. Different to what happened here.

J

David said...

While I can see that this guy is annoying and frustrating for you, I wouldn't worry too much, though it sounds like you no longer are anyway. He enjoys knowing you who you are and maybe having, in his mind, a bit of power over you. But that power would evaporate if he ever did out you, so he probably won't ever take the chance. And hopefully in the not too distant future it will be moot point and his power will be gone forever.

Jay said...

As you said, it's more annoyance, than worry. I don't have any concern of him outing me.

j