Gay cellphone?

Ok, now what straight guy has an LG Prada cellphone??? I rest my case :)

Happy passover

Happy passover to all my readers. I'll be back early next week!

jay

cute college boy (ccb) part 3

Another day spent hanging around cute college boy (CCB). He just gets better and better! He was wearing a 'sailor' t-shirt, kind of like you'd expect to be worn in an ad for Jean Paul Gaultier Le Male. I also discovered he wears white CKs!



Well he didn't pull down his jeans for me so i could see if they were trunks or briefs, but it was a hot look! And i'm gonna see him again tomorrow :)

Cute college boy pt.2

So now i really think he's gay. We sat next to each other in a class. I was so nervous i couldn't even make eye contact for the first half hour. Eventually we got chatting about assessments, plans for next year. And he really sounds gay! Not effeminate, but i don't know any other way to describe it.

Oh well, so i may have confirmed it, not that it helps me much...

Help me out

I know i mentioned this before, but i'd love to read some of your comments. It makes me feel sane that i'm not talking to myself, lol. And you can do so anonymously so don't be shy!

Jay

Probably my alltime favorite song

I absolutely love this song. It's kind of our song (our being me and HGF). It's Apologize by One Republic & Timbaland. I could listen to it all day over and over. It sometimes gives me the chills just listening to it. It reminds me of the good times and the bad times, and it sometimes makes me want to cry. I love driving my car when this comes on the radio. I put up the volume to full blast. HGF, i miss you...

Being jewish, religious and gay. Can they coexist?

I've got lots of thoughts floating around in my head, so i thought i'd put some of them down on 'paper'. One question thats always bothered me was can i be a practising jew and a 'practising' homosexual.

According to traditional orthodox judaism, that answer is no. Sexual 'immorality' is one of the 3 cardinal sins in judaism, something one should give up his life for, rather than transgress (male to male anal sex falls within this category). The other two being idolatry and murder. This is based on some verse in the book of Leviticus.

There are different ways one can go about responding to this problem. There are those who just avoid anal sex. Oral sex and masturbation are considered lesser forms of sin. Others have the belief that the literal translation cannot be the correct interpretation of this verse because God made us gay, and there is no way he would not allow us to have a loving sexual relationship with other men, forcing us to be celibate, so this must mean something else.

I don't think i fall into either category. My whole life all i've been taught is that it's wrong (no thats not all i've been taught ;) ) and to say it must mean something else doesn't sit so well with me. It kind of sounds like taking the easy way out. On the other hand i'm not going to live my life without sex to please some higher being. And thats where i'm stuck.

Since my late teens i've started to become more and more apathetic or disinterested with religion. Everything is done more because i'm used to doing it by rote. Praying, eating kosher, but it just doesn't do anything for me anymore, and i find myself becoming completely disinterested, and less observant in my conduct. I sometimes contemplate about giving it all up. Obviously its not something to taken lightly, but i don't see much of a choice. Maybe being gay is my get out of jail free card. If they don't want me, then i don't want to be a part of them either....